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I’ve got’cha right where I want’cha!

Blog…. oh, how I’ve missed you.

Last night I was watching a surprisingly good movie… surprising for three reasons… 1) I’d never heard of it, 2) the biggest name actor in the movie was the mom from Gilmore Girls, and 3) something about the cover and the title looked “typical.”  Also curious, it seemed fairly mainstream for a Sundance Film Festival flick.   It’s called The Answer Man and is really quite funny/clever with a lovable cameo from the guy who played “Buster” in Arrested Development.

Anyway… the premise is this… Arlen Faber, author of the book ME & GOD, while his book is wildly successful cornering 10% of the God market, he himself is a crotchety, angry, middle-aged man still searching for meaning and cornering himself off from civilizational as much as possible in his deceased father’s downtown Philadelphia townhome.  He meets Elizabeth after crawling on all fours into her chiropractic business.  In trying to woo her and through a relationship painfully forged with Chris, the book store owner down the street, he begins to soften, get out of his head, reconnect with people and admit his faults…

ok, so that was a fairly awful synopsis, however… hopefully you get the picture enough to understand the context about what I really want to share from the movie.

The book store owner works out a deal with Arlen… he will take 5 of his books in exchange for every 1 answer to his questions about life.  The questions and answers given really touched me.  Especially the first, as it encompasses the exact question I was living in at the moment I turned the movie on… here it is…

Chris: “Why can’t I do the things I want to do.  There’s so much I know I’m actually capable of and I never do them.  Why is that?”

Arlen: “The trick is to realize that you’re always doing what you want to do.  Always.  Nobody’s making you do anything.  Once you get that you see that you’re free and life is really just a series of choices.  Nothing happens to you.  You choose.”

This answer really made me pause and reflect… “I’m right where I want to be in this moment?”  And then image of a villain in an old western played in my head saying “I’ve got’cha right where I want’cha!”  Could this be true?  Could I have myself right where I want myself?

Part of the reason I’ve been MIA from Blogland the last two months is that I’ve really been exploring the options of “what’s next?” in my life.  Where am I going from here?  What career path should I pursue?  What will meet all of my needs both now and in the future?  Should I be a life coach? a therapist? a writer? a documentarian? a Real Charlotte Housewife? or keep doing what I’m doing?

Often while exploring these questions I honored how good I’ve got it now… how much Freedom, Ease and Abundance I now enjoy and at the same time recognizing that I also have needs for Purpose, Meaning, Contribution, Respect, Appreciation, and Mutuality that maybe aren’t currently being met as much as I’d like.  My problem, as I saw it, was stemming from the fact that I couldn’t see or imagine how to meet ALL of those needs at the same time… it seemed in order to pursue the missing ones, I might create stress or financial strain, or difficulty with scheduling and therefor inhibiting both mine and Sean’s sense of Freedom, Ease and Abundance.  I simply couldn’t settle for that… I meditated, searched, and worked on it with my life coach in order to see a way to have it all… and in the meantime, I was going to do my best to sit tight and appreciate what I’ve got.  So this answer… “what i’ve got is exactly what I want” was a curious suggestion to me.  Could it be, that somehow, right where I am is meeting all my needs?

The entire movie reminded me so much of the Conversations with God book series, that I decided to go pull the two I have off the shelf and read them before bed.  I settled on Friendship with God and flipped open to a page that seemed perfect, of course!  (I love doing that and it happens to me all the time!)   I read from page 104-117, and here’s a quick excerpt from the beginning of that section:

from Friendship with God (pages 104 – 107) – (God’s words are italicized)

And has that been so bad for you?” (I heard this as a question of, is where I am right now been so bad for me?  my answer was “no” and Neale Donald Walsh’s response was “no” as well, with some elaboration, which led to a question from him and the following dialog.)

So tell me, how can I learn to trust?

By not having to.

Help me here.

If I don’t want or need anything from you, do I have to trust you for anything?

I suppose not.

You are correct.

So the highest level of trust is not having to trust?

You are correct again.

But how can I get to a place of not wanting or needing anything from You?

By realizing that it’s already yours.  That whatever you need is already yours.  That even before you ask, I will have answered.  Therefore, asking is not necessary.

Because I don’t have to ask for what I already have.


But if I already have it, why would I even think I needed it?

Because you don’t know you already have it.  It is a matter of perception. (This aligns with ACIM)

Do You mean that if I perceive that I need something, I do?

You will *think* that you do.

But if I think that God will meet all my needs, then I will not “think that I do.”

That is correct.  That is why faith is so powerful.  if you have faith that all your needs will always be met, then technically, you have no needs at all.  And this is the truth, of course, and it will become your experience, and so your faith will be “justified.”  Yet all you will have done is change your perception.

What I expect is what I get?

Something like that, yes.  Yet the true Master lives outside the space of expectation.  He expects nothing and desires nothing more than what “shows up.”


Because he already knows he has everything.  And so he happily accepts whatever part of Everything it is that shows up in any particular moment.

Wow… all my needs ARE met… just my perception is off.  So as spoken about in Marianne Williamson’s book A Return to Love, the only prayer I ever need is, “God, I need a miracle,” which is a shift in perception, in essence saying, “God, please help me see this differently… help me see the Truth here.” 
So let’s do it…  “God, I need a miracle.  Help me see the Truth in my life that all my needs for Freedom, Ease, Abundance, Purpose, Meaning, Contribution, Respect, Appreciation, Peace, Beauty, Love, Mutuality and any others I can think of ARE all met, right here in this now moment.  I accept that what is now, is what is best for me now, otherwise it wouldn’t be here.  I move beyond trust and into knowing that I am safe and free and encouraged to be myself.  And so it is.”

To be continued…

April 27, 2011 at 2:00 pm Leave a comment

BLISSfix – Movie Trailer: Visions of a Universal Humanity

Yesterday I heard about a new movie coming out called Visions of a Universal Humanity that looks upbeat.  This came as great relief after reading about the odd mass death of birds and fish world wide in the last two weeks.  I was really wanting to hear some messages about humanity being resilient and rising to the occasion to make a better world instead of succumbing to the temptation to consider 2012 prophesy and ‘end of days’ ideas.

I’ve always liked Abraham-Hicks message on the 2012 topic. They basically say the world could never end because we are creative beings and in seeing things we don’t like, so many of us would so dramatically call forth change for the better and that call would be answered and instantly transform the scenario. In one recording I listened to they said something to the effect of the reason we create situations like Y2K or 2012 is because we enjoy the pressure of a date to come up against to inspire faster, more drastic change in the direction of our desires… the proverbial rock bottom. It is a curious thought that I find worth consideration. Here’s one related video:

What do you think? Did the fish & bird deaths freak you out? What brings you hope?

bonus video: (i really love the feel of the video footage, as well as the music and message)

January 10, 2011 at 6:01 pm 1 comment

BLISSfix Recommends “Penelope”

penelope_poster_2I LOVE this movie.  Penelope represents in fairytale wonder, all that I wish to rebirth within myself.  I have rewatched certain scenes over and over, attempting to reprogram previously ingrained beliefs that I feel are no longer serving me.  After watching it I felt empowered to know what loving and accepting myself might look like.  Without many role models of that in my life and in society, watching this story unfold was like a cool drink of water in the desert.

Artistically, it has a beautiful set design and great use of imagery that made me feel like I was watching a play.  I also love Reece Witherspoon’s quirky self-solid character in the movie… and was delighted to see that Reece also directed it.  I’m also a big fan of the self-empowerment and confidence Witherspoon displays in her movie Legally Blonde, so I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised that she championed a project as noble as this one.

The tag line “What makes us different makes us beautiful” is a perfect synopsis without giving anything away.  I want to share this movie with everyone I know, as I feel we all could use a dose of remembering that accepting ourselves is the key to unlocking a million possibilities in life.




On a personal note, I connect with Penelope’s plight of an unsightly physical  flaw that the public rejects.  In fourth grade I moved to a new school and for the first time, I was picked on for my appearance.  I had dark hair on my arms, more than other girls my age… in fact, more than boys my age… and there for I became “Harry Heather” and “Gorilla Girl”.  I attempted to smile through it, but the words hurt and I felt embarrassed and helpless to do anything but endure their teasing.  The teasing happened less in middle school, but was obviously still on the tips of people’s tongues if they felt like putting me in my “place.”  In high school I began bleaching my arm hair to make it less noticeable… and the adaptations toward finding acceptance in society continued.  I love the scene in the movie where she leaves her “prison” and goes out into the world, but not without her scarf to hide what the world rejects… but she discovers later when she exposes herself for who she is, the world loves her… and then she feels free to love herself.  Perhaps its time to remove my many scarves.  I think of how many things I do in order to meet others’ approval, from make up, to hair removal, to pleasing conversations that avoid confrontation, to joining in social activity I’d rather not do.  What would happen if I were me… if I said “no”… if I spoke what I really feel… if I did only what I wanted to do… and I was still loved and accepted by others.  I’ll tell you what would happen… I’d feel a million pounds lighter.  I’d feel what it means to truly love and accept myself, because I would see that the person judging me… is me.  “I was imperfect in the face of others, and they didn’t care… they loved me anyway.”  I think where I’ve become confused in recent years as I’ve explored this concept of “who am I, really?” is that there is a part of me that enjoys feeling pretty and enjoys smooth, clean shaven legs and non-hairy arms, and socializing from time to time… and where does the line get drawn between what efforts I do for myself out of joy and what efforts I do for others, out of a need for approval?  Finding that line and sticking to the self acceptance side has been difficult for me in the past.  However, this movie has gifted me a better understanding of it and patience with myself as I progress toward total self love and acceptance.
I am so happy and grateful now that I love an accept myself as I am and choose all of my actions based on what feels good to me in my heart.

April 4, 2009 at 7:59 pm Leave a comment

A Quick Pick-me-up

It may just be me, but I love this movie, and I love the music videos in it.  I also am enamored by the Indian dances in this particular video.  I can’t watch it without smiling, moving along and wishing I would go ahead and sign up for a belly dancing class already! 🙂


February 21, 2009 at 7:21 am Leave a comment

BLISSfix Recommends Louise Hay’s “You Can Heal Your Life”

You Can Heal Your Life Extend Version DVD

I can’t say it enough.  I love this DVD.  I have the extended version with all the interview outtakes included and they are simply marvelous.  Each time I listen to it, I receive new insights and awarenesses, new points of inspiration.  I highly recommend this DVD to everyone, especially those individuals who are wanting to experience physical healing.  I believe a new way of being is in the process of being born and some the greatest teachers who also believe this are all here in this movie, ready to encourage your own awareness of this truth.

December 24, 2008 at 5:53 am Leave a comment

day 60 – I DO Love Myself! (June 12, 2008)

day60I cannot say enough about Louise Hay’s new movie, You Can Heal Your Life. from this site you can watch it online or buy it on DVD through Amazon.

I bought this movie a few months ago, and every time I re-watch it, I’m at a new consciousness level and different aspects stand out to me.  Today I paid a lot of attention to the affirmations they encourage.  One lady mentions that she does her affirmation like reps in a gym, instead of lifting weights, she’s repeating the words.  I remembered having done that once while exercising.  Saying half the affirmation silently with the inhale and lift, and the other half, with the exhale and release.  I remembered it working well, so I set out for a brisk walk and an intention to heal.

There is a part in the movie that I had been drawn to where the main character grows to a space where she’s ready to say “I love myself, therefor I take loving care of my body. I love myself, therefor I treat everyone I meet with love and kindness…”  After this series of “I love myself, therefor” statements, she experiences real transformation.  I decided I was ready for this.  I’d been contemplating this question of “do I love myself” for over a week and I was starting to hear an answer of “Yes.”  Now it was time to deepen it.

I love myself, therefor I listen to my inner voice, my intuition.
I love myself, therefor I entertain myself with uplifting media.
I love myself, therefore I do the best i can and then I let go.
I love myself, therefor I exercise to raise my energetic vibration.
I love myself, therefor I say what I mean in a loving way.
I love myself, therefor I invest in transformational healing work and products.
I love myself, therefor I take myself to Agape.
I love myself, therefor I volunteer and give to others because it feels good.
I love myself, therefor I take care of my appearance.
I love myself, therefor I live in a place that makes me feel good.

This continued on and on as I intuitively cut a path through the neighborhood.  Halfway through the walk the path i was on dead ended in front of a statue of a mom, dad, baby and young child.  I didn’t miss the symbolic nature of what I’ve been healing and this coincidental crossing.  I stepped lightly up to the statue, hugged it for about 15 seconds, stepped back and jovially continued on my journey.  I love that I’m free to be a little weird here… there’s an understanding in a large city known for odd behaving people, act however you want, no one you know is going to see you, and even if they did, they wouldn’t judge you for it.

The walk led to the ocean as the sun was setting.  Still repeating my affirmations in my head, smiling and meeting eyes with all passers-by, i turned back toward home. At some point the affirmation became a conversation and a realization of my breakthrough with Joshua last night.  He had said to me, “You always do that.  You’re always able to take it and flip a negative into a positive belief.  It’s great!” and it occurred to me that I had some flip-able beliefs in my life.

Realization 1.  If I believe that all pain is love in disguise and that all things are her for our development and unfoldment, then EVERYTHING in my life is hear to serve me.  So something good, something beneficial has emerged from the attachment ‘disorder’ and the abandonment while in the womb.

Realization 2.  I was reading people’s energy today as I found myself thinking something and seconds later, someone in the room would say that exact phrase.  I was able to read the energy and know what was coming next.  I did this at church Wed. night as well, so this is really happening.  This is a gift, and its important that I see it that way.  Its also important that I learn to be able to tell when it’s my energy that i’m experiencing and when its someone else’s.  I realized that my ill feelings following the volunteer work were because I was still experiencing the fears of the people I had connected with there, because they echoed in me the fears of my mother from before.  In being able to see that it wasn’t my fear, its much easier to release it.

Realization 3.  If this is a gift, how did it come about?  How did I learn to do this?  What if, because my dad left and my mom experienced so much pain in the 8th month of pregnancy, and all those hormones, emotions and experiences pumped into my little fetus body and brain, I learned it was important to read and understand other’s energy because it was going to affect me.  What if he hadn’t left at all, or had waited until I was out of the womb?  Would I still have this ability to read energy?  Would I still be able to relate to others and feel what they are feeling as much as i do now?  Would i be as effective in helping people without this gift?  It seemed that my brain was finally adding up what my soul already knew to be true… I chose this incarnation because of the gifts I would gain from the pain.  I knew that this particular scenario would allow me to grow and develop in a way that would enable me to help others.

Realization 4.  If that was a blessing, then the being alone for the first three days of life must have been a blessing, too.  What have I gained from the attachment ‘disorder?’  All of a sudden I realized that because I distanced myself from others and authority figures growing up, it allowed me to not pattern identically after the people who raised me, but to skillfully select the attributes of each parent and role model in my life, taking what I liked and leaving the rest.  If i had bonded appropriately, it may have been harder for me to strike out on my own path.  I may never have found my current belief system for fear of letting go of my safe and original belief system.  I would not be me, whom I love!!!, and that would be disappointing.

Realization 5.  If both of these served me, it must have been an easy decision for my soul to pick these circumstances as the benefits far outweigh the sacrifice and the sacrifice isn’t permanent!  If I knew the entire story before picking an incarnation, i’d know that in 30 short years, I’d be addressing these things and reversing the adverse effects and embracing the benefits.  What’s not to love about this scenario!?

So with one hour of exercise, a few conscious, earnestly stated affirmations, and an openness to shifting how I look at things, I honed an entire new belief system that is much more supportive, loving and accepting of the way things were… and are now.  i am so grateful for this experience… it didn’t feel like I figured it out, it felt more like it was being explained to me… like I was being cared for by the universe.  It was delightful!

November 25, 2008 at 4:31 am Leave a comment